Fossil. The remains (or an impression) of something that existed in a past age and that has been excavated from the soil. hmmmm.. I guess that is how my feelings are today like FOSSIL. Every one has a past, someone pleasant someone worth learning a lesson from. Lot of people I know or not very well know, keep asking me about my past. Well justified (but from their RESPECTIVE point of view ). Past is made up of memories and lessons, some pleasant some not, it involves feelings, people and lot many things that u have come across when your past was alive. But today all those things have become a fossil. They are well preserved in spite of all the erosions life has in forced on us. I am today what I am because of all these fossils I have respected and treasure throughout my life. I respect every person moment thing and lessons from my past for making exactly what I am today. And I love myself deeply. Irrespective to whether I am right or wrong but because that I am honest and transparent, which didn’t come to me as a choice but by chance. I know I have some unpleasant memories, some injustice, felt been used at times, felt looser and ignored some mistakes which I committed intentionally or unintentionally but I still don't want to hang all those in my hall of shame because I don't want anyone to put remark in their sane sense of their own experience. I love and respect everyone from the core of my heart who in my past has come in touch with me for short or long. Its them who have given me an identity today. If I am accepted and appreciated today by few people its all because what I have learnt from my experiences. And all my experiences are based on people who have been with me in my past. I do periodically go in flash back and curse myself, have I done like this or that I would have been in a better phase today, but then when I rethink, I agree that may be things could have been even worse if not any better. We learn to walk only when we fall, we value success only when we know how it feels when we fail, we know the worth of a smile when we can feel the pain of the tears. So I adore and salute all those people today and forever who have taught me and made me cry in my past. Because of them today I now value all the smiles I have and I try to give. I am a very possessive person and I hate to share anything that is just mine. I value everyone who has been known to me or befriended me today or yesterday. And the way I get upset when someone disrespect my friends or my family I get upset the same way when someone disrespect or comment about people from my past, irrespective to whether they have hurt me or left me bruised after all they WERE my friends or family at a point of time. This is one reason I avoid discussing them out. I know those who want to know or show their concern, care for me too that is why they so curious but will anyone let one friend say anything negative about another. All my friends and people I knew from my past has created a footprint on my heart too deep for to get eroded with time but collectively they have coloured a picture of me in the canvas of my life.
In loving memory to all of them who have created a priceless fossil within my heart in my so long run of life, some too fresh where as some which need a head scratch to remember
